When someone cries so hard that it hurts their throat, it is out of frustration or knowing that no matter what you can do or attempt to do can change the situation. When you feel like you need to cry, when you want to just get it out, relieve some of the pressure from the inside - that is true pain. Because no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to, you can't. That pain just stays in place. Then, if you are lucky, one small tear may escape from those eyes that water constantly. That one tear, that tiny, salty, droplet of moisture is a means of escape. Although it's just a small tear, it is the heaviest thing in the world. And it doesn't do a damn thing to fix anything.
I only hope that my actions as a man will somehow convey the true person I am. I have cried. I have regrets. I have wished that I could change things... I am so sorry for the past and the person I was as a juvenile.
Actions speak much louder than words... I hope my actions do so... Thank you for taking the time to look over my life and hope you see the real me, the man, and not that lost kid.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart if you took the time to sign the petition.
If a man is judged by only one deed in his life; picked by those who love him it would be his best, picked by those who hate him it would be his worst. Let his actions throughout a lifetime prove his true nature, his true being... let that be the measure of the man.
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KJ-52 - That WAS my life...